Date: 03.03.2004Mood: lazy
Music: tHE bITCH hOTEL - Do U Wanna Dance
I think nobody knows this song I listen to but that is ok. I love that song so much. And after a long time hating my download prog I got that song. *brush* The lyrics are stupid `cause they just thing "do u wanna dance, come and take xa chance...ahahaha" but I think everyone love the song which was played by meeting his true love. *looks at the pic of Sven*
My music exam was kinda....weird. I don`t like music anymore with that teacher even I love that teacher as a German teacher. Well, next Friday I write math. ^_^ I really like math `cause I understand everything. And last one will be informatic. But than it`s finally over.
I met up with Sabsi yesterday evening. We went to SpaceBowl and talked about different stuff. But in general it was all about boys, love, hate and the girlfriends of your ex-boyfriends. Hmm, I think I met up too much with Sabsi. I just loose money by meeting with her. To- day I have to call Jürgen to tell him that I can`t work that Friday. HOpe he won`t kill me. *pray*
My mother though about going to Bad Bevensen in the easter holidays. O.o Their Wellness-hotel should be very good. Hmm, would be fun. But I would like to stay at home to have mre time to learn `cause I have my A-lvel exams directly after the holidays.
I missed to tell you that I met Nico once. I was like "OMG he`s coming over to me - run" but it was so funny to talk to him. I don`t know why he started talking to me but it was ok.
I go to school now. Have a nice day.
Date: 29.02.2004Mood: tired
Music: BoA - No. 1
Hello everyone, I totally forgot to learn for my music-exam tomorrow but before I`ll start learning I want to write. As you can see there is a new layout with Full Moon Wo Sagashite. I like pink so I chose that image. Hope you like it.
Tomorrow is March 1st and March is the month a lot of my friends have their b-days. I have to buy a lot of presents. Thanks god that I have enough money for extraordinary presents. So let`s see who will get what.
07.03. - Marie -> don`t know yet but this year for sure
10.03. - Franky-Boy -> Easterbunnies (insider) and pics of my family
18.03. - Annika -> cake, cake and some CD`s
22.03. - Grandma -> Sweets and I tidy up my room
29.03. - Rena-chan -> good pens for drawing (maybe Copic`s)
--.03. - Anja -> Robbie Best Of or a self-made cake
Francis also has her birthday but I don`t know if she gets something `cause I don`t even know if she would like to have something from ME. Yeah, I think to much about old and dead friendships. But by talking about old/dead friendships. I will contact Juliane the next days. We were best friends for about 5 years and broke up without any reason. ^_^
Work was very exhausting this time. But I was allowed to work with Rena and Paul. ^_^ This time I`ve seen a lot of people from my class/school. I never expected to see Mütze.
Saturday evening I went to Sabsi for drinking wine and talking, laughing and watching old CitA (Caught in the Act) videos. You must know we are still fans of them and totally crazy. *dance* I came back at 4.20am and then started watching "So Close". This film is so great. It`s a HK-movie and so sad. I really think about buying that film.
And now some short words about Manuel. ^_^ He don`t work at the moment but on Friday I met him at Real (supermarket). It`s better to say he met me `cause he went over to me (I don`t saw him) for saying hello. In the first moment I was like "Oh my god what ....f***" but then we talk a little bit. I could really die in such moments. But he must like me `cause he left his mother for saying hello to me. *dies*
I have to learn now. Wish me luck for tommorows exam. ^_^
Date: 26.02.2004Mood: relaxed
Music: Oasis - Don`t Go Away
Well, Sanae`s webspace was down for some days so I couldn`t update. First of all I have to say that my Info-teacher is an idiot.
Yesterday I was at my hair stylist to get new color and a fresh cut. I`m so proud of my "new" hair. It`s now brown-blond-red. I like it so much. And today I finally got some shoes for my A-level prom. It`s kinda diffiult to find shoes in size 42. Well, I became a shopping addicted. I spend all my money I earn in clothes, food and stuff I don`t need. But it`s ok `cause I`m happy. The next things I want to buy are for my computer. He needs some hardware.
That week is cool. I just have 2 or 3 lessons a day and the first lessons free. Tomorrow (today - it`s 2.36am) I start at 1.25pm and quit at 3pm. So cool. ^_^ But I`ll get up early `cause I have to work for geography a little bit.
Last working session was cool. Well, I had a headache but it was fun. Manuel needn`t to work and came for party. He look so great in that casual clothes. Hope I get at bar 3 that weekend. It`s cool to talk to Paul and Rena during work.
I past the last 3 hours by fixing my pc. There was a great problem with and I had to install everything again and again but now he works perfect as ever.
Date: 17.02.2004Mood: dreaming
Music: Changing My Life - Eternal Snow
Today I wrote a biology-test and lost. But it`s not so bad. I just need a D to pass and I will make it whatever it takes. In the second part of geografie we had to do a test about our knowledge. I lost that one too. How can I answer specific questions about world-history when I have no history since 11th grade. ?_? And in Music I fell asleep. -.-; Argh school on Tuesday sucks as school on Thursday. Tomorrow I just have 4 lessons and the first 4 free. But I have to go under the sun and do some shopping before school starts. Nyam, I haven`t start with learning vocabs again for my English-exam on Friday but the exam itself will be easy. Yesterday we trained for our oral-exam and Staffa (German-Teacher) wanted to hear me. ME ! So I went in front of the class and showed them all who I am. Staffa and Schmidt were kinda surprised that I`m able to talk. I want to know what I got.
In the supermarket I decided to loose some weight. So I banned all sweets (I gonna die) and took some fruits. My dinner this evening consisted of 1 apple, 3 tomatos and 2 Fruchtzwerge and a lot of water. And I`m not hungry at the moment (about 4 hours later).
The best moment of the day was in 2. big break. Sarah was so jealous that I got Gummibärchen and she not. But to say it witrh her own words: She comes along with all so well. But she doesn`t got Gummibärchen muharharhar.
This is a very short ntry but I want to arive at my bed befor 2am. So huggis at all, sleep well and enjoy your life.
Date: 15.02.2004Mood: confused
Music: Britney - Everytime *again*
Oh damn, I don`t really know where I am at the moment. But first I`ll tell you about my Valentine`s day. It was so cool. I went to work `cause I don`t get that Jürgen don`t need me this evening. But I met Manuel in the tram and we talked about stupid Gausianer-pupils (he`s a Gausianer ^_~) and about June 18th and it was just cool. Well after getting to know that I can go home I went to get some money for disco. It was so cool to party up first time after 2 month. Basti was there too and was very nice to me. Since the moment I saw Basti I don`t know who I like more. Piuh, but I then I give up basti `cause he`s to jealous for me and started flirting with Manuel. He sang some lines of "Time of my Life" with me and so the negative feeling given to that song by Sven vanished away a little bit. He also sang a line like "I wanna love you" when he was looking at me. Whoa I could go crazy. Sabsi was kinda shoked of Andi handeling another girl. But she`s quite relaxed. Well, and I hope the best for myself.
This night I hang around with Sindy and Franzi. I haven`t saw them for about 2 month. It was cool to talk to them. We walked through the city, stopped at McDonalds and gone home to watch "Dirty Dancing". (Why are girls watching "Dirty Dancing" when they could watch "From Hell" ?) Franzi was very tired and so we brought her home and then Sindy and I decided to visit the Helenesee to watch the stars. It was very cold and lonley but so peaceful.
Sabsi called a few moments ago and told that a university student called Rene asked for a girl visiting the 12th or 13th grade at Friedrichs (my gymnasium) which is tall and has dark hair. That could be every third but thie girl he asked for is called Chrissy. O_o Well, I write myself with a "K" `but that could be exactly I. But I don`t know any Rene studying Law in Frankfurt. I`m really exited what it will end in.
SO, and before I go and do my hamework I tell you a horror story. Gottschalk really thought I am together with Robin. T_T And that just because I once left disco with him. I could die. See ya next time.
Date: 11.02.2004Mood: exited
Music: Britney - Everytime *love*
Well, today was a quite good day. Informatic was boring as usual but hey, Marci doesn`t drove me crazy in a bad way. I had to laugh inside so much. Marci you like me in any way huh ? ^_^ And the Staffa-lesson was cool today. I was the only one who faced what he wants this time. Tomorrow I have to talk about 8 minutes in front of the class about the theme I got today. I want a good mark and so I have to write it now. (It`s 22.58pm now) -.-; But the last days I just slept 4 hours and it was enough. Hmm think I became old. T_T
The last couple of days I visited all doctors I have. Now I have to take a lot of tablettes for the next 99 days and visit my doc regulary every month. And beside that I can throw my knees away. I hope I can walk at least the next 10 years without to much pain. When it come hard I`ll get a new knee. First left than right. But Life goes on and I keep walking. ^_~
Seen Susi and her boyfriend today. Well he looks better and nicer than A. but he`s the same kind of boy like Basti. I wish them luck.
And I`m really looking forward to Valentine`s day. I never liked that day buut this year I hope for something concerning Manuel. *please god let him work*
Christoph talk kinda friendly with me today. In the first moment I thought he`s ill `cause he ignored me and told rubbish about me for the last 3 years and that just because I blocked his love attack. *strike* Sabsi dated Andi today and I hope she`ll become happy that Friday.
Tomorrow I go to my new favourite shop and buy something cool. But now I have to work for Staffa-sensei.
Ah and greetings to Schindler-sensei who helped me banning that fucking virus from my pc today.
Huggies at all *Hika.chan @ work*
Date: 09.02.2004Mood: crazy
Music: Robbie - Life Thru A Lense LP
Well holidays are over and I was so lazy. But now I`m working very hard `cause my A-level is waiting and I want to go to the same university as Bobo or Basti. Ganbatte !
I change a lot in my life through the last days (2 weeks). I became a typical cheeky girl with make up the whole day, party every day and of `cause much drinking and smoking. I smoke a lot the last time. I know it`s not healthy but I don`t care.
I finally finished the chapter of Sven. Hannover is a cool city with great discos and other stuff but I have a new crush in Manuel. But I`ll see what it will end in.
School on Monday is cool. I eat a turkey pizza every week and laugh a lot. Today I sat there with Sabsi and Chrissy by talking about the Mikado-Lan the LTR and how to become a girly for next Lan. Just cool. and I have to do a project with Fehser. ^_^
I already planed my 3 month summer holidays. I`ll go to an english country for 2 weeks and then to Paris with Sabsi for some days. Sacre Cour in summer must be great. Musicians all around and love in the air. And of cause shopping at TaTi. That store is so cheap with great clothes. Think I`ll die by exitement.
By the side. I became totally peaceful. Well today I wrote a plan "How to kill yourself in school" during my first lesson just for fun. I don`t hate F.M. and Frosch any longer. I just don`t understand them.
I ordered a new cover for my loved Nokia. It will look so cool. I just don`t know if I go and get a new number.
Stefan contacted me today but I haven`t answerd yet. Maybe I see him online to get to know what he wants. Well and now I want to great some people:
First of all I want to thank Sabsi for being as crazy as I am and always listen to me when I feel down. Please think about the living-group in 2. University`s year. And I have your Stuff toy, earrings, keyring and letter waiting for you.
Chrissy and Schindler-sensei for helping me with my fucking Otto-Karl-Friedrich (PC)
Marcel for making me laught and getting on my nerves.
double_te for allowing me to call him Te-chan and Nervsack. *hug*
Sanae for being as freaky as I am concerning love and other stuff. Do you come to Ani for sure ?
Everyone else for helping me to become what I am now. I`m very proud of myself.
And at last an announcement. I`m going to get my own webspace so if anybody want to get hosted mail me.
Well, that`s al for today. I have to learn now. Robbie rulez !!
Date: 14.01.2004Mood: ill -.-
Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - No More Words
Hello Everyone. I know that I`m very lazy concerning bloging but it happened so much again that I didn`t had time for anything.
Do you know the feeling that you thik that is finally everything what you`ll ever have but then things totally change ? That`s the way I live at the moment. By going into holidays I thought I love Basti (his better side). That was on a Friday. And At Saturday I fell in love with Sven. He`s so great. So perfect. And he`s living in Hannover. T_T But that`s it how my life is. I get to know someone who`s 1,92m tall, funny aso everything you ever wished for and than this one lives about 300km away. I missed that feeling of love since 4 years. I never was like that before. If he would call I would move and do everything to be with him. I know I shouldn`t love him so much but it`s so difficult. I`m fighting against myself not to contact him `cause I don`t know exactly what he thinks about me. I just know that he was looking at me the whole time, wanted to dance with me very close nad moved his hip at my ass and couldn`t look at me the last day. I`m going crazy. I think I will contact him in a funny way and see how he answers. Please wish me luck. Onegai.
Enought of my heart. I finally got a job. I have to clean up and earn 5€/hour. Now I can buy me mor emanga and some CD`s I want to have since years. And I`m going to the Animgaic this year. I`m so happy. *dance* I hope I can go to school on Thursday `cause I want to work. Fucking Bronchitis. But through the free-time I got by that illness I will read "Des Teufels General" by Carl Zuckmaier tomorrow.
Hihi, at work I met Manuel and he`s a very cute boy. And his look was so jealous as I talk with Robin. Yes, work is fun. I hope I`ll see him more often from now on. *smile*
Well, I`m going to bed now. See ya.
Date: 19.12.2003Mood: tired
Music: Tom Albrecht - Wir sind Eins
Today was the last schoolday for this year. And I really hate school at the moment. In some subjects I became quite good (thanks learning) but in two I got lost and I just know the reason for one subject. But I have 4 month left to make it. ANd I will `cause I don`t want at another school now. After 10th class I wanted to move but I didn`t and know I want to fight. Haha sounds stupid. ^_^
I don`t really miss going to disco today. I don`t feel for party and we go to south tirol this evening. I really looking forward to one week of joy and no Staffa (German`s teacher). And the second week my friend from Eisenach is going to visit me and will stay till 2nd January. Woa I`m so exited. We`ll going to Berlin to do some shopping. Maybe I get some Manga or other things. My first visit of Neo Tokyo Berlin. Did I say that I`m so exited. ^_^ I`ll burn some CD`s for the travel now. I write when I come back (28th December)
I wish you all a merry X-mas and a lot of presents. And when we don`t read us before 2003 ends have a good start in the new year !!!
PS: I found the perfect present for Francis but she won`t get it from me. Muhaharharhar
Date: 14.12.2003Mood: confused
Music: SugarBabes - Too Lost In You
Ok, I know I wasn`t blogging for a long time but it happened so much around me and my friends that I didn`t had the time to write some lines. And than the exams started and I have to pass them all cause I don`t want to repeat that year. English was as easy as ever and music was difficult `cause I hate to analyse a composition. But I passed both with mark 2. *happy* And my math exam was kinda easy too. I hope I get a 3. *hope for a + at it* And I didn`t have to write informatic `cause I got a HTML job to do which was so easy I can`t believe it. Well, my info-teacher likes me a lot. ^_^ And through that I get some good connections to the boys. [Double-Te] speaks in his freetime to me what he never did before. Think I would be a better boy as a girl.
Ok, my love-life sucks a lot. My crush likes sluts. But this Friday (my birthday ^_^) he danced with me like he dance with those sluts. He`s a good dancer and knows how to use his hip. Ok, think that`s to private. ^_~
Yeah and by talking about my birthday I have to tell you something. I know I never wanted to talk about Francis and Nico again but both send me an b-day sms. Nico at 0.06am (he was surely bored) and Francis around 4pm. I just answered on Francis sms to thank her and as I took my mobile in my hand the next morning there was a sms with content of meeting each other. I told something like "ok but today `cause i have no time". Finally we met today (one day later). It was very strange to see her after half a year and we don`t know what to talk about. There was so much silence in the air as never before. Ok, I never wanted to meet her `cause she blocked my tryings at September with the words "we`ll never meet again and there is no reason for staying friends blabla". And to say the truth I really wanted to say my opinion to her what I think about that she contacs me now and so on. But as she stand in front of me I`ve seen the moments of our friendship and just wanted to ran away. Well, at the end we made up a meeting at Wednesday for buying X-mas presents. I don`t know if that was a good idea of mine `cause it won`t be different from today. We`ll walk and don`t talk and will never be friends again. Argh everything is so useless at the moment.
But first I have to write my elite-lessons-exams about 5 hours tomorrow and on Tuesday. Please wish me luck ad knowledge. ^_^
Ah I forget that Nico wrote to me via ICQ that his greetings where true. I don`t care. He`s now on ignore. ICH LEBE MEINE MENSTRUATIONSZICKIGKEIT !!!
